"Leave Me!"

LEAVE me, for you are not welcomed.

You darken my doorstep and I want you to go away.

FLEE from this place and never return.

I didn't need you yesterday, nor will I today

And most certainly not tomorrow.

You bring nothing but discomfort and pain.

Your voice sings of my inadequacies and failures.

As if you are celebrating its existence.

Why?  What have I ever done to you?

VACATE these premises, for you are invading my safe haven.

It has become dark, cold, and dismal-like.

There is nothing you can offer me,

Nothing that I can glean.

VAMOOSE! As this is a no-condemnation zone.

Only peace, grace, and love are cordially invited.

So VANISH, I don't want to ever see your presence again!

Trusting In Him

My thoughts are consumed with worry

No comfort can enter it's space

My heart is filled with anxiety

It's beating is quickening at a rapid pace

My world is one second from crashing

I'm not sure how much more I can take

My palms are sweaty as nerves creep in

This feeling of utter failure I just cannot shake

Is it possible that my world will end

Right here, right now, I wonder

This overwhelming circumstance is too much right now

I don't know how to get out from under

But then I remember that special someone

Whose love goes far and deep

He keeps me safe in times like this

In His caring nature, will hold me while I weep

I immediately feel His warm embrace

As He tells me there is no pain He does not feel

This brings me great comfort to hear the words

For I know by His stripes I am healed

As I gain my composure, He so eloquently explains

Trusting me is the only way to bring you from despair

Lean on me, trust in me

I know how much you can bear

I got it now, at least I think I do

I have a Father that truly knows what's best

I'll put my entire trust in Him

Do what I can and let Him handle the rest

The Beauty of Revelations

I once heard that you should want revelations vs. deductive reasoning.  I agree with this point, even though I am a very logical thinker.  Revelations come from God and is much more sustainable.  I mean, the mind can go back and forth in its reasoning, but a revelation from God is there to stay.  

I studied the book of 1 John for about 3 days in preparation for a chapter in my book and the next morning, I had that "Ahh!" moment.  I've been struggling with God being mad at me over a couple of years now and as I was getting ready for work, I could see the writing on my mirror.  The message was as clear as the sky is blue.  There was no denying I had received a revelation from God.  It was the breakthrough I had been praying for. 

That feeling stuck with me for the better part of the day.  I felt free and liberated.   What a wonderful God we serve.